she loves you

Damn you, OC, for making an awesome 4th season, having me buy it on DVD & watch it, fall back in love with you, and then be cancelled.

where do we go from here

So I had a really bad week. This past weekend helped me a lot (nothing like friends & family to make you happy), but last week really beat me down, and made me question so many things about the rest of my life - specifically, my career.

I won't go into specifics (mostly because I don't really want to think about it & depress myself again), but I just find myself at the end of this hellaciously busy & exhausting year unsure of myself and my future. And I hate that I allowed someone to do this to me, but there it is.

Do I want to be a teacher? Should I be a teacher? Am I a good teacher? What the hell else would I do?

I really wish someone could just give me the answers to these hard questions.

here comes the sun

What a difference a year makes.

One year ago today, my grandmother passed away. It's hard for me to believe that it has been a year - sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday, and sometimes it feels like it was such a long time ago. I really missed her on my birthday - my first birthday without her - and think of her often. I have especially been thinking of her in the last week or so, because Robbie and I got engaged last week, and I wish that she could have been here to know about it. She loved Robbie, so I know it would have made her very happy. I'm not a particularly religious person, but it gives me comfort to think that she watches over me from time to time - especially in times like this.

I miss you, Grandma.

Gladys Letha Patrick Cummings
1911-2006